I feel like I'm an impostor. What do you advise?

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Career in IT

Hello!
As you can see from the title of the topic - I have a feeling that I am an impostor. At the moment I'm 27.
Since childhood, I loved poking around in computers. He was quite assiduous and did not throw the problem until I solved it. I got a job in an i-no company as an installer. Later he got a job as a photographer - he photographed goods for an i-no store. Last year I worked in a studio with good lighting. Total experience of about two years. Then I photographed hotel rooms for websites for about a year. Since I dealt with photographs, I also knew Photoshop with an illustrator.
While working as a photographer, I noticed that the site on Open Cart is not so difficult to set up. Opened my first online store. Since I had an SEO at my job, I could learn what to do and how to do it. So I opened a couple more stores for people on order. Of course, there was nothing special there. Just fine-tuning from modules, editing markup and styles.
Then I got a job, where I administered Google Adwords for about a year for one company. Pretty successful.
With all this baggage, the doors to the USA opened for me, where I had already left for an internship. There I redesigned the site, which was on an incomprehensible engine, and also set up the online store myself. The photo also came in handy for good shots of the goods.
I was and am a full-time system administrator who will fix the computer, and stretch the cable, and set up the router, and set up advertising, and make a beautiful brochure, and correct the photo, and the site.
This went on for about 2 years, until our SalesForce (CRM) admin quit and I was offered to take his place.
Things are going well overall, good progress has been made throughout the year. I learned a lot from the admin side, but I would say that about 70% of all tasks consist of coding in JAVA. For coding, you have to use an Indian.
It turns out that I am the link between all departments (Production, Accounting, Logistics) - I come up with a solution, and the Indian codes the whole thing.
I can already write some simple controller myself. But I can't write a sheet of code where there's a lot of logic.
It happens that there is nothing special to do - everything is tied to coding, and I sit idle and gnaw at something that I cannot correct myself. Sometimes I even think that in my place there should be more of a developer than an admin.
Started learning java-rush course. The course helped me in understanding the logic of what comes from where. Learned some syntax. But damn it, it doesn’t catch to such an extent that it would sit for hours. And my knowledge is clearly not enough for serious controllers.
It will soon be necessary to develop a customer portal and mobile applications. I'm generally 0 in coding logic, databases. Of course, you can hire Indians, but why me?
Throughout my career, I have met a lot of good specialists. True successful professionals in their field. When I asked them what they can do, they answered that they only deal with layout / site core / logic, but not all at once like me.
And here I get to know a lot, but I need to know even more and I have a panic.
Who has been in a similar situation? What do you advise?

Answer 1

It turns out that I am the link between all departments (Production, Accounting, Logistics) - I come up with a solution, and the Indian codes the whole thing.

That's the whole point of your question. You are not a programmer, not a developer, you are an architect or at least a project manager. And do not be upset about the fact that you are not drawn to programming. Doesn't pull - so it's not yours. But you manage to manage, apparently. And if you manage to manage and come up with solutions to emerging problems and problems, then do it. Not everyone involved in software development has to be a programmer. My advice is to develop further in this direction, and leave programming to those who really want to do it.

Answer 2

you are an excellent project, I advise you to move in this direction, you have more than enough experience for this.

Answer 3

I fully support Alexander, but ...
I would rather say: you are a speculator (in the good sense of the word). Bought low, sold high.
Let's imagine a situation:
The customer needs to dig a hole. And he is looking for a person for this. There are 2 types of performers here.
The first type: go and dig a hole for him. The second type: will find people who will dig a hole cheaper, and keep the difference for themselves. It's called money out of thin air.
This is how a huge number of people live both in Russia and in the world. Wow, you don't even have to go far. Entrepreneur of this Russia - Tinkov. He started with dumplings, continued with beer, now he is stirring up the bank. Do you think he will be able to bungle the pellets himself or will he be able to brew beer? Yes x * d swam there. He has no idea how it's done. He stupidly finds people who do it to him. And then he sells the finished product, be it a bank or a food product.
Your next goal is to make customers pay more and you can keep even more difference in your pocket. Raise the quality of development, look for more advanced programmers and designers.

Answer 4

you in order to be at least a link between the Indian developers and your system. Over time, you will master Java more, unless of course this process will not discourage you. So far, there is nothing terrible, you are increasing your managerial qualities. There is an opinion that knowledge is always not enough, BUT in my opinion, not knowledge, but time, because. you can't know everything. I think with this borderline age you will be able to see your chip better and continue to develop in the direction that you are best at and it would be good if you also liked it too)). In general, no panic and solve the problem from the conditions and opportunities that are. If now only the Indians can cope with it, then let them be. They are not easy to work with.

Answer 5

in the USA? Labai in SalesForce, you will have bread for a lifetime, and then you will open your own consulting, let the Indians squirm at an inexpensive
site, they have such karma, but for now you are lucky - labai in salesforce as much as possible

Answer 6

it's time to rule the indians

Answer 7

With all this baggage, the doors to the USA opened for me.

And they didn’t open for me with a lot of luggage. Can you show where the "opener" is?
continue to improve, deepen knowledge. Most people just stop studying after graduating, so you have a distinct advantage in wanting to learn, which is often more important than anything else.

Answer 8

And here I get to know a lot, but I need to know even more and I have a panic.
Panic should be in the opposite case: if it seems that you know everything and nothing more is needed. :)
If you like management, there is a convenient opportunity to start pumping yourself in it by hiring more programmers. If the soul does not lie in management, use the free time that you now have to retrain for something else.